Many of us have different roles in our lives. My more prominent role in this life is that of a mother. I have a wonderful little boy who happens to have an autistic spectrum disorder. He is so very smart and I am so amazed by him everyday. I've always wanted a child of my own but didn't think I could get pregnant. So it was a real shock when I saw the two red lines. I had thought that I was just coming down with a bug. The nausea had lasted for two weeks before I took the test, but I still hadn't believed it to be because a baby was growing inside of me. Although it became a struggle fairly early in his young life, he has been a complete blessing in ours.
Just a few days ago, in the early morning hour, in the midst of dozing and falling into a deep sleep, I was reminded of a difficult time in my son's behavior. It was after his diagnosis and before he officially started school. It started small. He would consistently line things up. He seemed to be searching for some type of order. Then it moved on to him lining up two or three of our dining room chairs. Soon he was lining up all of our dining room chairs, and before we knew it, he was lining up every single chair in our home down the center of the house! After learning how to teach him through behavior therapy, I knew what I had to do. I needed to be strong and not allow the lining up. Any time he would move a chair away from it's original spot, I would immediately put it back, without a word. At first, he would laugh nervously. After some time, when he realized that I was going to continue putting chairs back, he started to cry and whine. After a month and a half of this-every day, several times a day-he finally gave up and hasn't lined up chairs since. (Yes, he still lines up small things from time to time.)
Sometimes we can behave like my son and constantly want to line up the chairs when they could bless our lives if we use them the way God intended. He loves us and wants to obey Him so that life will go well for us. Like a parent to a child. Col. 3:20 ; Titus 2:11-14; Titus 2:1-2.
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Thanks for sharing this. Since my twins have been born, I have found it to be a real challenge to let go and discover what lessons/blessings God wants to give me through my children. I am a person who definitely prefers structure and order. As you can guess, there has been NO structure or order in this house lately! Just mass chaos! This posting reminds me that I can learn and grow spiritually, even in the midst of chaos, if I go with the flow and lean on God.
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